Sure it trembles

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It appeared spontaneously, though I spent much time making it look.
I don't know where to put it, prob, to "photomanup->conceptual"

The hardest thing was to make the hands so that they seemed to tremble in the natural way.

I wanted this image to represent the infantilism in the way some people regard their life. I mean, the teens especially. How old does she look? 16 or a little more? Does the gun look like a toy in her hands? I wanted it to.
The balcony door was expected to symbolize the demonstrative behavior (the one that can be scored for sound like following: "As they all would have heard the shot"...)
The white color corresponds with both innocence and being spoilt.
The embryonic pose means she is still a child who was deliberately maltreated, downtrodden (by herself?) so that the complications the naughty spirit made for itself did put her into a corner-to-hide. But this seems to be all a game-playing for one. Does she realize how far it has gone?
Some sweat shine added in PS to the forehead and the cheeks. I wanted to show she goes hot and cold with a thought it all is to end if she only contracts some small muscles of her fingers.
Some people do not know what the life costs. Do I visualize that?

Do I imagine the color of blood (for when she finally pulls the trigger... Or if she really does)
Does her face express any buzz got from such a situation of intentional being about to cross the verge?

I've never experimented that way. I'm not interested in what is there behind the tombstone after your death. There are many challenging things here. Showing the way I regard my life. Doing that here, for instance. I don't feel comfortable telling myself I am kinda poseur whose ‘efforts’ are not for being seen by anyone. I know where my straight edge is. But that's a life. Not all of the people even have the sXe in them.

A little update on 21st of October 2009